egg drop soup. mmm....

I think it's about time I wrote a happy blog, and since I feel very happy today I figured this would be as good a time as any. Yesterday was not one of my finer days. I got home from work, went to sleep around 11am and didn't wake up until 4pm. I still felt tired and awful. I was feeling sad cause I missed someone, but looking forward to going to church and spending time with my family last night. I haven't gotten to go to church in a while and I can feel it. I just really wanted to be around people that would encourage me. Then I check my schedule and see that scheduling has given me another nap last night and taken my off day today. It was just the icing on the cake at that point. I can handle when scheduling screws me around on a good day, but when I'm already feeling like crap sometimes I just feel like I can't take it anymore. I still ended up getting to eat with my mom and Mook but couldn't make church. It was cool cause mashed potatoes are one of my comfort foods and my mom had made them and chicken and gravy. All smooshy foods she said, which I realized is one of the qualities I like about mashed potatoes. It's all soft and warm and makes your belly feel good.

I went to work and survived. I didn't stress myself out about going to sleep last night. I've been having trouble lately. I made a card for someone and went to sleep when I was tired enough. I only got 3 hrs of sleep and overslept this morning but oh well. At the time it stressed me out so bad I almost put my bra on over my undershirt, but it really wasn't that big of a deal.

Yesterday morning on my flight I had a big black lady on there and her name was Lillie White. I thought it was hilarious and laughed quietly inside a great deal. I really hope that's her married name. Today out of the 38 people on the flight, 3 of them had a very distinct lazy eye. Not a droopy eyelid lazy eye, but a "I'm not sure which eye to look at" lazy eye. Craziness. So now it's 9am and I've been home from work for 30 min. I'm eating someone's leftover eggdrop soup (don't be mad Tanya). It makes me happy cause it's warm and yummy. I feel so much better today than I did yesterday. I'm not sure exactly why but I'm glad. It feels good to feel good. May the good feelings continue.

The other night when I couldn't fall asleep I remembered how God tells us to cast all our cares on Him and to take every thought captive for Him. I realized I've been trying to bear so much on my own. All of these things are completely out of my control but I still let them consume my thoughts, so every time a new thought would come to mind I had to make myself realize what the worry was in it and just say, God, here is this bill, this person, this bad feeling. I can't handle it. It's really a good feeling to know your problems are in Someone else's hands. Especially someone who is much more capable and sees the big picture.