sleepaphobia

That's what I have. I've been tired enough to fall asleep all day, yet now that I'm home and in my own bed, I'm still awake. I don't know what the deal is. My life is too busy these days. My mind won't slow down with all the things I have to do. I need to swap my trip but now they've changed the rules to make it more difficult for me. They hate me. I dreamed the other night that I got hired by the airline I want to get hired by. I was so happy and in my dream I was asking if this was a dream and if I was going to wake up and find out that I didn't really have the job... My subconscious loves to toy with me. Today I spent most of my day participating in wedding activities. First was Amie's wedding shower at her church. That was followed by a 4 hour wedding invitation session at Tanya's. I'm so tired. Not from that. Just from busyness and having fun.

I've had so many odd things happen at work lately but have been too tired or too busy to blog about them. I was on a "go to sleep quickly" roll for a while, but it seems to have left me. Also, whenever I'm really tired I think of lots of things to blog about, but when I actually sit down at the computer I can't think of them. I should make notes. Will have to work on that.

Am jealous of my fabulous older brother as he is currently interviewing for a new job in Australia. I think he'll still be living in China but will be spending time down there as well. Again, I'm jealous. Sometimes I wonder if I'm in the wrong line of work. I feel like my life is very ordinary sometimes, and that's the last thing I want. It's kind of overwhelming and amazing all at the same time how many choices we have of what to do with our lives. There are so many places to live. So many jobs to have. So much education available. I know, right now, I've chosen things that are important to me - being around my family and friends and paying off bills - and made my decisions based on those, and that's fine, but I don't want to become so comfortable that I miss out on opportunities and don't try other things.

I guess that's enough thinking for now. Maybe I'll give sleep a shot since it's nearly midnight.

PS. Between, Georgia was a great book.