frustrated is the word of the day

I think I could really get used to not working more than I work. Now that I'm feeling some better I've been able to enjoy being at home more. Because of a court appearance that never happened and me being sick, I've only worked 3 of the last 12 days... I didn't realize how much it was until I just counted it up. I haven't been able to enjoy it as fully as I would prefer since I've been sick but at least I'm getting better now. The weather has been amazing lately. There have even been reports of people getting a little bit of color from the sun! I sat next to the lake in Peachtree City yesterday and watched the planes fly over and the old men jog by in shorts so short they should be illegal. Such fun :). It has been nice to have time off to do nothing but get well.

I've been a little frustrated with my life lately (before this hiatus) due to the lack of productivity. I feel like all I do is go to work and sit at home. My job isn't very challenging or fulfilling, which is fine, but it means that I have to challenge myself in other ways. There are things that I want to do, books to read, things to write, things to make, music to play, people to keep up with, and I haven't been doing them. I guess I just need to make goals for myself and then meet them. I'll figure it out. Just a bit frustrated right now.

I'm also frustrated with my job. I feel like I work for a company where I have no voice. Scheduling has been a huge frustration lately. I submit swaps and then get denied for reasons that don't make sense. The logical response is, well call them and talk to them, but then I can't get anyone on the phone. I feel like my hands are tied. Or like in my dreams where I'm trying to yell at someone and make myself heard but since I can't yell no one listens to me. Once again, very frustrating. I also haven't gotten paid for work I did over 3 months ago. It's sad to me that people can't just do their jobs without you constantly chasing after and keeping up with them. I spent half the afternoon yesterday on the phone trying to figure out why they haven't paid me yet. I also got a jury duty summons which meant that they took a day off my trip next week. Sounds good except that I'm losing about 10 flight hours (pay). The thing is, I'm on jury duty standby. I may not even have to go but wont' find out until after 5pm the night before, which is too late to stay on my trip.

I think that's about it. I'm frustrated and just need to make it motivate me to do all that I can to change things. Today is going to be a good day though. It's too beautiful not to be.