But I am sooo tired. The whole theory I had yesterday about getting my second wind and not being able to sleep was true. The sad thing is it was even worse than I expected. I got in bed around 8, read til about 830, decided to sleep. Couldn't. Turned the tv on til 9 something. Decided to still. Lay on my stomach. Lay on my back. Lay on my side. Turned the heat up. Turned the heat down. Still couldn't. Turned the tv back on minus glasses hoping the blurriness would lull me to sleep. No banana. I didn't fall asleep til after 1am. 4am comes around waaaay too early when you've just fallen asleep. The first flight was ok cause I drank coffee but by the time we were in the taxi line waiting to go back up to Portland it was all I could do to not let my head drop on my chest (while sitting in the front jumpseat). Good times.
Portland is beautiful. Atlanta was yucky. I'm glad we didn't stay there. I'm going to take a nap, run, then hopefully see Amy. I finished the book and it ended just as poorly as I expected. What a depressing book. It was still interesting I guess... Everyone was so messed up though. Now I'm reading one of David Sedaris's (sp?) books that one of my passengers gave me cause it was "too gayed up". As I get into it I'm beginning to see what he meant. We'll see how far I can make it.
When I'm tired passengers are sooo stupid. I have to wonder sometimes if they do it on purpose. I'm still all for everyone that flies having to take a course. I'd be willing to teach it - Air Travel 101. I'd tell them stupid things like "hey, when you get on the plane and then we take off, pretty soon after that we're going to serve EVERYONE on the plane a drink and a snack. NOW is the time to get one. Not 30 minutes later when they've just finished and are putting things away and you wake up. Not after they're finished and you 'make space on your tray table'. Not right before we land and you wake up and decide you can't make it another 15 minutes without a drink or you'll die." Also, don't make it seem like they're asking you to choose between your mother and your child to die. It's a freaking drink!!! Not a life changing decision. Have a little foresight and think about it before they get there if it's such a hard decision. Not after you said you didn't want anything and they moved 4 rows down and then you decide you want them to come back and go through every drink available, only then to decide on a bottle of water........
I have no idea where that came from. Something just possessed my fingers and all that came out. Oh yeah, and don't put all your trash at the edge of your tray table and look at me waiting for me to pick it up. I don't want to touch your trash that you just slobbered all over... Now I'm really finished (I think). I had to get that out of my system so I could go to sleep. I'm not really as grouchy as I sound. Not really grouchy at all. This is a good trip and my crew is really fun to fly with. People just get on my nerves sometimes.
I'm really liking the song suggestions. I need to get an ipod. One of these days...
Saturday, October 21, 2006
I'm too sleepy to think of a subject
I'm in Albany, NY and I'm sooo sleepy, but it's only 6pm so it's too late to nap and too early to go to sleep. So I'm sitting here in the armchair in my room struggling to stay awake. I have a feeling that around 7:30 I'm going to get my second wind and be wide awake til 11. I don't know why I'm so tired. It might be cause I kept getting woken up this morning. Who knows... I have to get up at 4am tomorrow though so I need to sleep good tonight.
I would like to make note of my accomplishment for the day, week, month... I ran, not walked, but ran 20 minutes today. I warmed up by walking for 2 minutes, then ran for 20, then walked for 3 more. Might not impress anyone else but I wouldn't be surprised if that was the longest I've run in years. And you know what made it possible? (I know you're dying to know...) I listened to music. My mom bought me some new headphones that actually stay attached to my head while I run and I used a little mp3 player. It was amazing. During some of the songs I actually FELT LIKE RUNNING. As I was running I felt like I had discovered the goose that lays golden eggs or something. My main problem with running, other than just being really out of shape, is that I get really bored. I run for 5 mintues, watching the timer the whole time, and get so distracted by the pain and tiredness that I stop. It kind of sucks though cause now that I know what I'm capable of I'll have to do it again next time. (That doesn't really suck. I just raised the standard on myself. Go me!!) Now I need to get some new running shoes cause the ones I'm wearing are the same ones I've had for 3 years and they hurt my toes a lot. Needless to say I'm pleased with myself today. I also walked to and from lunch which was nice. It's really cold up here so you have to walk fast to keep from dying :-P.
I need suggestions for good music to run to. I found that a lot of the hip hop stuff, though it has a quick beat, it isn't strong enough. The song that I liked running to the most was the Jay-Z Lincoln Park remix, which I don't normally like, but it was fantastic. I'd appreciate suggestions.
Speaking of accomplishments (though this one has nothing to do with anything I did), I have a new "nephew". Chasity and Aaron had a little boy last night. I'm waiting to hear back from her for more details. Some of you may know her (and therefore may care). I'm really happy for them.
I think I'm going to go watch tv or read. I'm guessing football is the only thing on, as football seems to be the only thing people care about in the fall. I'm working on what feels like the longest book ever "Cider House Rules". I never watched the movie but I found the book at work a few weeks ago and have gotten sucked in. It's going on forever and ever. I just want to know how it ends. It's really interesting. Lots of controversial things in it, but that's what makes life interesting sometimes, isn't it?
Happy Saturday to all.
I would like to make note of my accomplishment for the day, week, month... I ran, not walked, but ran 20 minutes today. I warmed up by walking for 2 minutes, then ran for 20, then walked for 3 more. Might not impress anyone else but I wouldn't be surprised if that was the longest I've run in years. And you know what made it possible? (I know you're dying to know...) I listened to music. My mom bought me some new headphones that actually stay attached to my head while I run and I used a little mp3 player. It was amazing. During some of the songs I actually FELT LIKE RUNNING. As I was running I felt like I had discovered the goose that lays golden eggs or something. My main problem with running, other than just being really out of shape, is that I get really bored. I run for 5 mintues, watching the timer the whole time, and get so distracted by the pain and tiredness that I stop. It kind of sucks though cause now that I know what I'm capable of I'll have to do it again next time. (That doesn't really suck. I just raised the standard on myself. Go me!!) Now I need to get some new running shoes cause the ones I'm wearing are the same ones I've had for 3 years and they hurt my toes a lot. Needless to say I'm pleased with myself today. I also walked to and from lunch which was nice. It's really cold up here so you have to walk fast to keep from dying :-P.
I need suggestions for good music to run to. I found that a lot of the hip hop stuff, though it has a quick beat, it isn't strong enough. The song that I liked running to the most was the Jay-Z Lincoln Park remix, which I don't normally like, but it was fantastic. I'd appreciate suggestions.
Speaking of accomplishments (though this one has nothing to do with anything I did), I have a new "nephew". Chasity and Aaron had a little boy last night. I'm waiting to hear back from her for more details. Some of you may know her (and therefore may care). I'm really happy for them.
I think I'm going to go watch tv or read. I'm guessing football is the only thing on, as football seems to be the only thing people care about in the fall. I'm working on what feels like the longest book ever "Cider House Rules". I never watched the movie but I found the book at work a few weeks ago and have gotten sucked in. It's going on forever and ever. I just want to know how it ends. It's really interesting. Lots of controversial things in it, but that's what makes life interesting sometimes, isn't it?
Happy Saturday to all.
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
today is my Monday
I've mentioned this before but it's so wonderful I have to say it again. One of the things I appreciate the most about life is the chance to start over and over. I love the way God made each day to only last 24 hours and then it's going to be over and you get a new day. I love how as bad as one day may feel, the next day can be totally new and different. The fact that everything changes and nothing lasts forever can sometimes be a sad thing, but I think it's also a blessing. Yesterday I felt really sad. Today I feel so much better. Nothing has changed. I just feel better. I actually have to go to work today, which would usually bum me out, but I'm kind of glad about it. I talked to my mom and sister yesterday which seemed to help a lot. I'm not sure how. Like I said, nothing about my circumstances have changed, but I just feel better. Maybe it's having someone else to share your burden with. Knowing that others will pray for the things that make your heart hurt. Knowing that you don't have to deal with your problems alone. It feels good. They are still the same but don't feel as discouraging. Yesterday was nice. I have faith that today will continue to be nice.
It started out kind of scary. I woke up to the sound of a door closing. My house is usually really quiet in the mornings as both of my roommates work early. I looked at my watched and was horrified to see that it said it was 1:30. I have to be at work at 3:55 and have to do laundry and pack and get ready for 6 days of work. I jumped out of bed and was surprised to see Tanya in the hallway. Evidently she was feeling bad and didn't go to work. It was soo weird for us both to be home in the morning. Nice though :). Even though we're both just doing laundry and computer stuff, it's nice to have someone around. Oh yeah, evidently the battery stopped on my watch and it was only 930. Good times.
This morning I dreamed that I was at some big house by the sea (I think). It seemed that there was someone giving tours?? I had J's camera in my hand cause I borrowed it (which I actually did). Strangely enough the ground, which was sand and shells suddenly became like water and we were all kind of swimming around. After we got back on stable land I realized that I had lost his camera. Not cool. Did I mention that I have really bizarre dreams? At least there weren't bugs involved.
I guess I need to go work on my laundry and my room. It's a disaster and I've kind of given up on it lately. But I know that I don't want to come home to the same wreck on Thursday night and then again on Monday. Hi ho, hi ho, it's off to clean I go.
It started out kind of scary. I woke up to the sound of a door closing. My house is usually really quiet in the mornings as both of my roommates work early. I looked at my watched and was horrified to see that it said it was 1:30. I have to be at work at 3:55 and have to do laundry and pack and get ready for 6 days of work. I jumped out of bed and was surprised to see Tanya in the hallway. Evidently she was feeling bad and didn't go to work. It was soo weird for us both to be home in the morning. Nice though :). Even though we're both just doing laundry and computer stuff, it's nice to have someone around. Oh yeah, evidently the battery stopped on my watch and it was only 930. Good times.
This morning I dreamed that I was at some big house by the sea (I think). It seemed that there was someone giving tours?? I had J's camera in my hand cause I borrowed it (which I actually did). Strangely enough the ground, which was sand and shells suddenly became like water and we were all kind of swimming around. After we got back on stable land I realized that I had lost his camera. Not cool. Did I mention that I have really bizarre dreams? At least there weren't bugs involved.
I guess I need to go work on my laundry and my room. It's a disaster and I've kind of given up on it lately. But I know that I don't want to come home to the same wreck on Thursday night and then again on Monday. Hi ho, hi ho, it's off to clean I go.
It's raining, it's pouring
It's been raining since about 8pm last night (at least). I love waking up and hearing it. It's one of my favorite sounds to sleep to. Right now my bed is the most comfortable place in the world. Which is a good thing since I've spent nearly 12 hours here. I went to bed fairly early last night cause I've been feeling kind of blue. Ask me and I'll tell you why, but I'm not blogging about it. Once I was in bed it took me another 45 min to put my laptop and planner away and actually go to sleep, even though I was exhausted. I feel like I'm always exhausted lately. Might be the weather. Might be work. Maybe I'm just easily exhaustable (whatever that is). I think one of my problems with going to sleep may be that it seems to take me a long time lately. My mind never stops going. That why I was so pissed off when I was awakened at 4am. I knew it would require a second falling asleep. What was me up was the sound of a bug buzzing against my window. It was so loud, I started conjuring up images of enormous bugs that could carry away small people, shoes, etc... and since I just got some new shoes yesterday, and am kind of fond of them, I figured I needed to exterminate said bug before it stole them. (That and the sound of it was preventing me from going back to sleep.) Thankfully, due to the state of my room I didn't have to search far to find a shoe on the floor to kill it with, and I did - in the dark no less. I went back to my comfy bed to resume my sleep, and was severly annoyed that my guts were hurting and I couldn't sleep. After lying there long enough to realize it wasn't going to stop I figured I had to get up (out of my wonderful bed). I got up, figured out why my guts hurt (I'm so glad to be a woman) then got settled back in my bed. My only complaint about the whole sleeping situation is that someone needs to invent sleeping pants that don't ride up. I hate getting in bed, sliding your legs under the blankets, and having my pants go up to my knees.
As I lay in bed, trying for the third time to fall asleep, I thought of the options for pants that stay down. They are 1. sweat pants with elastic at the ankles. These usually stay down better but you usually wake up with lines around your legs because they went up as far as they could and then just squeezed for the rest of the night. 2. leggings... who wants to sleep in something so tight? 3. stirrup pants... oh wait, this is 2006. Do they even make them anymore?
And that's as far as I got before I realized my guts were still hurting and it was after 5am. I won't tell you that I got up AGAIN and out of sheer frustration and desperation took some prescription medicine to numb all feeling and knock me out. The beautiful thing is that it was raining the entire time. It rained during my dreams of being on airplanes (the bug interrupted that one - stupid bug). It rained during my dream that I was late for work and couldn't find somewhere to sign in (pleasant, huh?). And now, as I write this long, pointless, stupid blog, it's still raining. All I can say is, I'm glad I don't have to work today. I do work tomorrow and then for the next 6 days.
I got paid yesterday which was really nice. I haven't used my credit cards in several months, and though it is really hard sometimes, it's been great. It feels great not to spend money I don't have. It feels great to know that my debt is only going down. I feel like, for the first time in years, I have a little bit of control over my finances. I can actually see the light at the end of the tunnel. It's a really, really long tunnel but at least it doesn't go on forever. I found a website (somewhere on CNN Money) where you can put in your debt, interest rates, minimum payments, and it will calculate when you will pay it off, 1. by paying the minimum payment, 2. by paying the same amount every month 3. or how much you have to pay per month to be finished during a certain time period. It also give you a month by month plan of how much will go where, etc... It was interesting and encouraging.
This is the most rambly, stupid blog I've written in a long time. I'm aware of it though so it's ok. I guess I should get out of bed now. I'm going to see my family today cause I miss them.
As I lay in bed, trying for the third time to fall asleep, I thought of the options for pants that stay down. They are 1. sweat pants with elastic at the ankles. These usually stay down better but you usually wake up with lines around your legs because they went up as far as they could and then just squeezed for the rest of the night. 2. leggings... who wants to sleep in something so tight? 3. stirrup pants... oh wait, this is 2006. Do they even make them anymore?
And that's as far as I got before I realized my guts were still hurting and it was after 5am. I won't tell you that I got up AGAIN and out of sheer frustration and desperation took some prescription medicine to numb all feeling and knock me out. The beautiful thing is that it was raining the entire time. It rained during my dreams of being on airplanes (the bug interrupted that one - stupid bug). It rained during my dream that I was late for work and couldn't find somewhere to sign in (pleasant, huh?). And now, as I write this long, pointless, stupid blog, it's still raining. All I can say is, I'm glad I don't have to work today. I do work tomorrow and then for the next 6 days.
I got paid yesterday which was really nice. I haven't used my credit cards in several months, and though it is really hard sometimes, it's been great. It feels great not to spend money I don't have. It feels great to know that my debt is only going down. I feel like, for the first time in years, I have a little bit of control over my finances. I can actually see the light at the end of the tunnel. It's a really, really long tunnel but at least it doesn't go on forever. I found a website (somewhere on CNN Money) where you can put in your debt, interest rates, minimum payments, and it will calculate when you will pay it off, 1. by paying the minimum payment, 2. by paying the same amount every month 3. or how much you have to pay per month to be finished during a certain time period. It also give you a month by month plan of how much will go where, etc... It was interesting and encouraging.
This is the most rambly, stupid blog I've written in a long time. I'm aware of it though so it's ok. I guess I should get out of bed now. I'm going to see my family today cause I miss them.
Monday, October 16, 2006
Tell me this doesn't make you smile a little...
http://fun.from.hell.pl/2003-11-24/bubblewrap.swf
hey... whatever it takes
hey... whatever it takes
Saturday, October 14, 2006
Fortunately and unfortunately
I don't have anything significant to say. It's Saturday night and I'm sitting on my couch. I've been here for about 5 hours. I came home with the intention of napping, cause I'm at that point of tired where I can't do anything until I've slept. Unfortunately, I didn't go to sleep. Hopefully I will soon. I think it has something to do with getting up at 430 for the last several days and then sleeping longer, but very poorly last night.
Today I went with Jamie on a low fly by over the Great Georgia Airshow in Peachtree City. It was really cool. We were in an MD-11 which is just a tad bigger than the planes I work on every day. We flew over the field at 500 ft. I could see the whole area where I'm from, the grocery stores, the street my parent's live on, etc... The only bad thing was it was really windy and all the circling around made me feel like I was going to lose my lunch. I'm getting kind of tired of feeling like that. Thankfully I didn't. It was really great.
I don't really have anything else to say. I'm going to try to sleep soon. I have to work tomorrow afternoon. Good times. I miss good times. I miss a lot of things and I don't like it. I just wish it would all go away. Winter is on it's way and I'm not happy about it. I don't like being cold.
Today I went with Jamie on a low fly by over the Great Georgia Airshow in Peachtree City. It was really cool. We were in an MD-11 which is just a tad bigger than the planes I work on every day. We flew over the field at 500 ft. I could see the whole area where I'm from, the grocery stores, the street my parent's live on, etc... The only bad thing was it was really windy and all the circling around made me feel like I was going to lose my lunch. I'm getting kind of tired of feeling like that. Thankfully I didn't. It was really great.
I don't really have anything else to say. I'm going to try to sleep soon. I have to work tomorrow afternoon. Good times. I miss good times. I miss a lot of things and I don't like it. I just wish it would all go away. Winter is on it's way and I'm not happy about it. I don't like being cold.
Saturday, October 7, 2006
Prop planes...
...are the devil in airplane form. I just got off a 2-day trip that seemed to last for ages. Without being too graphic, I came as close to puking as one can without actually puking. This was while I was sitting in the jumpseat facing all my passengers. The one at my left knee was trying to hold conversation with me. Good times. Then I remembered why I don't fly that plane anymore. If I ever contemplate picking something up or swapping something on the ATR, I demand that any and all who love and care about me, prevent me from doing so. For those of you who don't know, the problem with prop planes (ours anyway) is that it flies at such low altitudes so it never gets out of the clouds and stuff that makes flying bumpy. It's pretty much bumpy the whole flight. On our last leg home the autopilot didn't work either. Fantastic. All I've got to say is when the airplane's rocking, Grace is puking. Nothing quite like spending two days carrying a barf bag in your pocket in case you can't make it to the bathroom. Nothing like doing a job that sometimes makes you sick and want to die. I heart my job.
Other than that it was a good trip. The lady I flew with was really nice. We talked a lot, and unfortunately she and her family have the craziest relationship problems I've heard of in a long time. It's really sad what kind of stuff people will tolerate. I had some really nice passengers as well. I had a lady talk to me the entire flight from Augusta yesterday. She was so enthusiastic about life, it was great. I want to be someone like that. She loved her job. She was blessed and completely aware of it. I don't know how people are that way but I'm going to find out.
I also really enjoyed the airport on this trip as well (if you can believe it). It may have been because I can see out the windows from this jumpseat. I could see the airplanes taking off next to us, see the lines of airplanes coming in, see all 21 of the waiting to take off. I've said it before but airplanes amaze me. I was sitting there in my jumpseat and realized again how weird it was that I was in a metal tube, weighing thousands of pounds, moving very fast high above the earth. It just doesn't make sense - but I'm glad it works. I was my favorite plane yesterday and today. It's really sad but I think I have a crush on this plane. I always look for it when I'm at the airport. I admire it's sexiness. It's power. How big and beautiful it is. And whenever I see it, it makes my day a little bit. I saw it as I arrived at work yesterday and then again today when we had just taken off. I saw several other 747s but none of them are quite as nice...
I think that's all I've got to say about airplanes and airports. I'm really tired and hungry and still feeling a little unsettled from flying. I think I'm going to go veg for a good long while. Hope everyone is enjoying this beautiful weather as much as I am.
Other than that it was a good trip. The lady I flew with was really nice. We talked a lot, and unfortunately she and her family have the craziest relationship problems I've heard of in a long time. It's really sad what kind of stuff people will tolerate. I had some really nice passengers as well. I had a lady talk to me the entire flight from Augusta yesterday. She was so enthusiastic about life, it was great. I want to be someone like that. She loved her job. She was blessed and completely aware of it. I don't know how people are that way but I'm going to find out.
I also really enjoyed the airport on this trip as well (if you can believe it). It may have been because I can see out the windows from this jumpseat. I could see the airplanes taking off next to us, see the lines of airplanes coming in, see all 21 of the waiting to take off. I've said it before but airplanes amaze me. I was sitting there in my jumpseat and realized again how weird it was that I was in a metal tube, weighing thousands of pounds, moving very fast high above the earth. It just doesn't make sense - but I'm glad it works. I was my favorite plane yesterday and today. It's really sad but I think I have a crush on this plane. I always look for it when I'm at the airport. I admire it's sexiness. It's power. How big and beautiful it is. And whenever I see it, it makes my day a little bit. I saw it as I arrived at work yesterday and then again today when we had just taken off. I saw several other 747s but none of them are quite as nice...
I think that's all I've got to say about airplanes and airports. I'm really tired and hungry and still feeling a little unsettled from flying. I think I'm going to go veg for a good long while. Hope everyone is enjoying this beautiful weather as much as I am.
Friday, October 6, 2006
salmon skin roll... mmmm
I'm supposed to be packing for work tomorrow but I think I'm going to go to bed instead. It's only one short night away so I don't really need much stuff anyway.
This last week or so has been really nice. Any sort of funk that I was in previously has definitely gone. It's been good to be at home. Have time to do stuff. Reconnect with people I care about. I still didn't do everything I was supposed to but I got a lot done so I'm happy.
I just got back from hanging out with the girls for Kat's birthday. We had sushi and it was fabulous. I'm slowly but surely learning about it. I really like sushi but eat it so rarely it's practically a new experience every time. I don't think our waitress liked us at all. We weren't THAT difficult :-P. It was a lot of fun though. I had the rainbow roll which is a CA roll with avocado and the chef's choice of fish on top of it. Also had two Unagi rolls. They were quite tasty. I'm so happy cause I even got Faith to taste it. She also had the bean sprout salad, which she originally turned down, and tofu - and enjoyed them all. I really enjoy helping people broaden their horizens. Even if they don't like everything they try it's nice to at least try. The CA rolls had orange caviar in them, which if I've had before I never noticed. I only really noticed this time cause I cut the rolls up and saw it. Either it doesn't have much taste or there wasn't enough of it to taste.
Today was a busy driving day. Peter, Amie and I went up to Atlanta, met Wendy, ate at Moe's, and then went to IKEA. It was the second time I've been there and just made me wish I lived in a cool apartment in the city or something. They have such nice model rooms there. I'm still on my comforter search. Found something that was a possibility, but I'm really broke (broken - haha) right now, so I was just looking.
Speaking of broke - this whole cutting up the credit card thing is scary. Through the beauty of online bill pay, my bank account was nearly cleaned out yesterday. The suckiest part of it is that I'm going to be traveling for the next week and a half which makes it a lot harder to eat cheap. Maybe I can lose a little weight this way though :-P (or maybe I should just exercise).
And speaking of traveling - my company is stupid. It is taking them days and days to process requests for my swaps. I'm trying to get some different days off at the end of the month and I put in a few requests to swap and finally two days later they get denied so I have to put more in and they sit for two more days. So frustrating. What are they doing over there? Playing tiddlywinks??? That's my rant for the night.
The last day or so has been full of all sorts of accomplishments. I found the much sought after bathtub scrubber I need at good ol' Walmart. I did my laundry.... Okay, so maybe not a lot of accomplishments. I did get out of the house at least. I'm starting down the slippery slope of rambling. I need to sleep so I can get up early and get ready for work.
This last week or so has been really nice. Any sort of funk that I was in previously has definitely gone. It's been good to be at home. Have time to do stuff. Reconnect with people I care about. I still didn't do everything I was supposed to but I got a lot done so I'm happy.
I just got back from hanging out with the girls for Kat's birthday. We had sushi and it was fabulous. I'm slowly but surely learning about it. I really like sushi but eat it so rarely it's practically a new experience every time. I don't think our waitress liked us at all. We weren't THAT difficult :-P. It was a lot of fun though. I had the rainbow roll which is a CA roll with avocado and the chef's choice of fish on top of it. Also had two Unagi rolls. They were quite tasty. I'm so happy cause I even got Faith to taste it. She also had the bean sprout salad, which she originally turned down, and tofu - and enjoyed them all. I really enjoy helping people broaden their horizens. Even if they don't like everything they try it's nice to at least try. The CA rolls had orange caviar in them, which if I've had before I never noticed. I only really noticed this time cause I cut the rolls up and saw it. Either it doesn't have much taste or there wasn't enough of it to taste.
Today was a busy driving day. Peter, Amie and I went up to Atlanta, met Wendy, ate at Moe's, and then went to IKEA. It was the second time I've been there and just made me wish I lived in a cool apartment in the city or something. They have such nice model rooms there. I'm still on my comforter search. Found something that was a possibility, but I'm really broke (broken - haha) right now, so I was just looking.
Speaking of broke - this whole cutting up the credit card thing is scary. Through the beauty of online bill pay, my bank account was nearly cleaned out yesterday. The suckiest part of it is that I'm going to be traveling for the next week and a half which makes it a lot harder to eat cheap. Maybe I can lose a little weight this way though :-P (or maybe I should just exercise).
And speaking of traveling - my company is stupid. It is taking them days and days to process requests for my swaps. I'm trying to get some different days off at the end of the month and I put in a few requests to swap and finally two days later they get denied so I have to put more in and they sit for two more days. So frustrating. What are they doing over there? Playing tiddlywinks??? That's my rant for the night.
The last day or so has been full of all sorts of accomplishments. I found the much sought after bathtub scrubber I need at good ol' Walmart. I did my laundry.... Okay, so maybe not a lot of accomplishments. I did get out of the house at least. I'm starting down the slippery slope of rambling. I need to sleep so I can get up early and get ready for work.
Wednesday, October 4, 2006
as I was saying...
I so love not working.
Yesterday I went to my parent's house and helped my mom and Peter paint their living room/dining room/kitchen. It looks really nice. I spent a lot of quality time on the ladder. Funny how I can spend nearly every day on a plane, even jump out of a plane, but I'm not crazy about being on tall ladders. Tall buildings either. One of the best things about going to my parents is that they take care of me. It's nice, after taking care of myself all the time - fixing all my food, paying my bills, doing my laundry - to have someone else take care of me. Peter takes really good care of me. When I walk in the door my mother asks me if I've eaten and starts offering me things. Then when I pick an apple, Peter suggest peanutbutter on it. I'm like sure, whatever. I start eating the apple. He takes it away from me. Cuts it, cores it, peanutbutters it and gives it back. Then he starts making tea like I like it (his way). It's the only sweet tea I like. Then we paint. We listen to music. We talk. We talk about our family members that aren't there. We compare who has talked to who and how they're doing. We try not to drip on the floor or paint on the ceiling. Then we eat more. Yay! I got to see my daddy a little when he got home from teaching. He works so hard. I admire him so much. He's set a high standard for men in my life.
After all the painting we drive over, in my lovely shiny car, to the school and watch my not so baby sister play volleyball. Her team is all very young and they're already able to hold their own against varsity teams. They won some but didn't win the match, but they still played really well. Michal is a rock star. I love my siblings. It's crazy how they're all growing up. I'll try not to embarrass them on here with talk of manly facial hair and the likes...
Last night I spent the entire evening (once I got home) watching tv and swapping trips. I've been halfway successful. I'm off on Friday for Kat's birthday. I have to do a sucky ATR trip on Saturday and Sunday. I can't believe they actually approved anything. Still trying to work some stuff out at the end of the month. The bad thing about having these days off is that I'm going to be working constantly for the rest of the month. J's trip got changed so he came over last night to eat leftovers from when I cooked on Monday. Now that I know how easy it is to cook shrimp I think I'll do it more. I really love leftovers. Except for when I cooked Monday, it seems that all I eat is leftovers. Sunday I ate Saturday night's leftovers. Monday morning I ate some of Amie's leftovers (she doesnt like them). This morning I ate some leftover smoked turkey chili my mom gave me. It's so good. My mother is quite the cook.
This morning I was going to go play tennis with Jamie, but then there was the confusion about the location, which led to a confusion about the time, so I ended up just going to the gym and mostly walking, a little running, 2 miles. It's better than nothing. The weather here is amazing still. I saw someone at the pool yesterday. I might go today. Who knows... I have a lot of house stuff to do since I haven't really done anything this week. So I guess I should go do it instead of sitting here blogging :-P.
I'm so happy these days. It feels really good. I would be waiting for the other shoe to drop, but why ruin a good mood waiting for the next bad one?? Life is good.
Yesterday I went to my parent's house and helped my mom and Peter paint their living room/dining room/kitchen. It looks really nice. I spent a lot of quality time on the ladder. Funny how I can spend nearly every day on a plane, even jump out of a plane, but I'm not crazy about being on tall ladders. Tall buildings either. One of the best things about going to my parents is that they take care of me. It's nice, after taking care of myself all the time - fixing all my food, paying my bills, doing my laundry - to have someone else take care of me. Peter takes really good care of me. When I walk in the door my mother asks me if I've eaten and starts offering me things. Then when I pick an apple, Peter suggest peanutbutter on it. I'm like sure, whatever. I start eating the apple. He takes it away from me. Cuts it, cores it, peanutbutters it and gives it back. Then he starts making tea like I like it (his way). It's the only sweet tea I like. Then we paint. We listen to music. We talk. We talk about our family members that aren't there. We compare who has talked to who and how they're doing. We try not to drip on the floor or paint on the ceiling. Then we eat more. Yay! I got to see my daddy a little when he got home from teaching. He works so hard. I admire him so much. He's set a high standard for men in my life.
After all the painting we drive over, in my lovely shiny car, to the school and watch my not so baby sister play volleyball. Her team is all very young and they're already able to hold their own against varsity teams. They won some but didn't win the match, but they still played really well. Michal is a rock star. I love my siblings. It's crazy how they're all growing up. I'll try not to embarrass them on here with talk of manly facial hair and the likes...
Last night I spent the entire evening (once I got home) watching tv and swapping trips. I've been halfway successful. I'm off on Friday for Kat's birthday. I have to do a sucky ATR trip on Saturday and Sunday. I can't believe they actually approved anything. Still trying to work some stuff out at the end of the month. The bad thing about having these days off is that I'm going to be working constantly for the rest of the month. J's trip got changed so he came over last night to eat leftovers from when I cooked on Monday. Now that I know how easy it is to cook shrimp I think I'll do it more. I really love leftovers. Except for when I cooked Monday, it seems that all I eat is leftovers. Sunday I ate Saturday night's leftovers. Monday morning I ate some of Amie's leftovers (she doesnt like them). This morning I ate some leftover smoked turkey chili my mom gave me. It's so good. My mother is quite the cook.
This morning I was going to go play tennis with Jamie, but then there was the confusion about the location, which led to a confusion about the time, so I ended up just going to the gym and mostly walking, a little running, 2 miles. It's better than nothing. The weather here is amazing still. I saw someone at the pool yesterday. I might go today. Who knows... I have a lot of house stuff to do since I haven't really done anything this week. So I guess I should go do it instead of sitting here blogging :-P.
I'm so happy these days. It feels really good. I would be waiting for the other shoe to drop, but why ruin a good mood waiting for the next bad one?? Life is good.
Tuesday, October 3, 2006
betty homemaker :-P
I so love not working. It's kind of bad. I should be independently wealthy so I don't have to work to have fly privileges. I've been chilling this whole week so far and it's been great.
Yesterday I woke up at 1030. Then I sat around in my pjs and tried to swap trips online until J came over and we went and washed, waxed, and detailed my car. It looks sooo good now. All nice and shiny and pretty. After that I cooked supper. It was whole wheat egg noodles, shrimp, sugar snap peas, brocoli, asparagus, and sauce. All homeade. It was really yummy. It was fun. We had apartment family supper.
I forgot to mention our lunch at my parent's house on Sunday. My little sister made yellow curry chicken and rice and veggies. It was so good. I'm glad she's getting an earlier start cooking than I did (not for lack of trying on my mother's part). Cooking is so much fun. I can't wait til I have more money to cook with and maybe someone to cook for on a regular basis. (And before I have everyone offering for me to cook for them... you know what I mean :-P).
There's more to write but I have to go... toodles
Yesterday I woke up at 1030. Then I sat around in my pjs and tried to swap trips online until J came over and we went and washed, waxed, and detailed my car. It looks sooo good now. All nice and shiny and pretty. After that I cooked supper. It was whole wheat egg noodles, shrimp, sugar snap peas, brocoli, asparagus, and sauce. All homeade. It was really yummy. It was fun. We had apartment family supper.
I forgot to mention our lunch at my parent's house on Sunday. My little sister made yellow curry chicken and rice and veggies. It was so good. I'm glad she's getting an earlier start cooking than I did (not for lack of trying on my mother's part). Cooking is so much fun. I can't wait til I have more money to cook with and maybe someone to cook for on a regular basis. (And before I have everyone offering for me to cook for them... you know what I mean :-P).
There's more to write but I have to go... toodles
Sunday, October 1, 2006
Insomnia is the devil
There are very few things that are as frustrating to me as not being able to sleep when I want to. The fact that I took a nap this afternoon could be part of the problem...
I called in on the trip I was supposed to be doing right now. I was tired of being gone and it was a stupid trip anyway. It's nice to be at home. Unfortunately that means I have to do all the things I've been putting off doing cause I haven't been home. My room is a huge disaster. I wish I would just wake up and it be clean.
I had a lovely visit with Adri. It was her birthday on Friday so we hung out, went out, shopped ourselves out, pigged out. You get it. It was fun. I think if I lived up there I would be tired all the time. Her friends are really fun as well.
I don't really have much to say right now. Most of the stuff on my mind isn't blog material. I'm still working on locating the off switch for my brain. Oh wait, all I need to do is be an airline passenger and my brain will switch off.. hehe. Just kidding. They aren't all that way. Just enough of them to make it seem they all are.
Oh yeah, I left my cell phone in Adri's car so I will be unreachable via phone until sometime Tuesday.
This weather is amazing. One of my favorite things to do is drive with the windows down and the music up really loud. This weather is perfect for it. Not too hot, not too cold. I need to make some new cds of "turn it up" music. You can't just blare anything. It's a good thing that I don't care what other drivers think of me when I'm dancing and singing in my car.
In spite of the insomnia, messy room, lack of money, forgotten cell phone, and other brain clog, life is really good. I flew back next to a lady yesterday who lost her husband of 40 years while they were on vacation in Barcelona in May. They were walking and he just fell down and died. Helps me put the things I whine about in perspective.
I'm off to attempt to sleep. Good times.
I called in on the trip I was supposed to be doing right now. I was tired of being gone and it was a stupid trip anyway. It's nice to be at home. Unfortunately that means I have to do all the things I've been putting off doing cause I haven't been home. My room is a huge disaster. I wish I would just wake up and it be clean.
I had a lovely visit with Adri. It was her birthday on Friday so we hung out, went out, shopped ourselves out, pigged out. You get it. It was fun. I think if I lived up there I would be tired all the time. Her friends are really fun as well.
I don't really have much to say right now. Most of the stuff on my mind isn't blog material. I'm still working on locating the off switch for my brain. Oh wait, all I need to do is be an airline passenger and my brain will switch off.. hehe. Just kidding. They aren't all that way. Just enough of them to make it seem they all are.
Oh yeah, I left my cell phone in Adri's car so I will be unreachable via phone until sometime Tuesday.
This weather is amazing. One of my favorite things to do is drive with the windows down and the music up really loud. This weather is perfect for it. Not too hot, not too cold. I need to make some new cds of "turn it up" music. You can't just blare anything. It's a good thing that I don't care what other drivers think of me when I'm dancing and singing in my car.
In spite of the insomnia, messy room, lack of money, forgotten cell phone, and other brain clog, life is really good. I flew back next to a lady yesterday who lost her husband of 40 years while they were on vacation in Barcelona in May. They were walking and he just fell down and died. Helps me put the things I whine about in perspective.
I'm off to attempt to sleep. Good times.
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
don't cry for me montgomery
I'm watching Will & Grace and Karen just kills me. She's like voicemail... how can someone mail a voice!!!???
I've had so many things I wanted to blog about lately but now I'm just blah. So this will be random thoughts I've had over the last few days.
You know your morning's going back when you have coffee in your shoes.
I haven't seen French billboards in a long time. I think I'm becoming too American in my discomfort with foreign things, and in seeing foreign things as odd and weird, instead of different and interesting.
I mostly walked, but partly ran 4 miles yesterday. Now my legs and butt hurt, but it feels great. I'm tired of being out of shape.
Oh yeah. I was in Montreal Monday night. That's where I saw French billboards.
I have a lot of stuff to do tomorrow before I leave to go visit Adri. I can't remember what most of it is though. I have to start another 4 day on Sunday morning at 6am. I've been really bad about getting up in the morning lately and it's really bothering me. After that 4 day I'm supposed to have one day off and then start another one.
My passengers were great today. Not all of them, but just enough, at just the right times so I made it through a very long day. I got to work in Montgomery at 630 this morning. Since then I've been to Cincinnati, Colombia, SC, Atlanta, St. Louis, and now I'm home. Throw in 2 mechanical delays where you have to go back to the gate for an hour and you've got a super fun day.
I think that's about all for now. There's much more but I'm very tired. I miss my family and friends. On days like this I just don't have the energy to call anyone. Glad they all love me anyway.
PS. I'm watching Will & Grace still. That's where the subject, sort of, came from.
I've had so many things I wanted to blog about lately but now I'm just blah. So this will be random thoughts I've had over the last few days.
You know your morning's going back when you have coffee in your shoes.
I haven't seen French billboards in a long time. I think I'm becoming too American in my discomfort with foreign things, and in seeing foreign things as odd and weird, instead of different and interesting.
I mostly walked, but partly ran 4 miles yesterday. Now my legs and butt hurt, but it feels great. I'm tired of being out of shape.
Oh yeah. I was in Montreal Monday night. That's where I saw French billboards.
I have a lot of stuff to do tomorrow before I leave to go visit Adri. I can't remember what most of it is though. I have to start another 4 day on Sunday morning at 6am. I've been really bad about getting up in the morning lately and it's really bothering me. After that 4 day I'm supposed to have one day off and then start another one.
My passengers were great today. Not all of them, but just enough, at just the right times so I made it through a very long day. I got to work in Montgomery at 630 this morning. Since then I've been to Cincinnati, Colombia, SC, Atlanta, St. Louis, and now I'm home. Throw in 2 mechanical delays where you have to go back to the gate for an hour and you've got a super fun day.
I think that's about all for now. There's much more but I'm very tired. I miss my family and friends. On days like this I just don't have the energy to call anyone. Glad they all love me anyway.
PS. I'm watching Will & Grace still. That's where the subject, sort of, came from.
Thursday, September 21, 2006
home sweet home
I just got home from work and it is beautiful. The weather is beautiful. I got my Victoria's Secret order in the mail and it was beautiful. I can relax now, which is beautiful. Do you see a theme here?
I think online shopping is fantastic. You get the shopping gratification, but then you also have something to look forward to for several days, which gives your days more excitement. It's all round a lovely thing.
I'm really tired because I got up at 510 this morning. My alarm started going off at 440 but since I didn't fall asleep til after midnight it was really hard to get up. It was also really cold up in Binghamton. Though I'm happy that it's not quite so hot, I'm not ready for the cold yet. I don't feel like I got to do all the summer things I love. It just seems like the summer was here, I worked, and now it's gone. I guess that's how things work in Grown Up Land. I'm not looking forward to how much more clothing I'll have to pack since it'll be cold a lot of places I fly.
I can't think of anything noteworthy about the trip right now. I nearly got Joe's line again next month but after putting them out for 5 minutes they changed it. Now I have the complete opposite schedule of everyone I want to spend time with. The only good thing is I have overnights near Adri and Amy. Woo hoo. I'm probably going to swap some stuff still though so I don't have to work every weekend. As Jamie reminded me yesterday though, at least I have a line. For that I am truly thankful.
I have a lot to be thankful for. The attitude adjustment about my job is going alright. Today was the only day that I started feeling really pissy toward passengers. No I don't have milk. No I don't have grapefruit juice or Fresca. It's a freaking 45 minute flight. Have a bottle of water or a Diet Coke and shut up........ Had to get that out of my system.
Yesterday I finished a book by Corrie Ten Boom called The Hiding Place. Her family lived in Holland and hid Jews from Hitler. The story is some about their lives, some about their time with the Jews, and some about the time they spent in prison. It's an amazing book. She really lived her faith. It really gives you a perspective on what a bad day is like. I recommend it to anyone to read.
I'm off to forage for some food now. Let the weekend begin!!!
I think online shopping is fantastic. You get the shopping gratification, but then you also have something to look forward to for several days, which gives your days more excitement. It's all round a lovely thing.
I'm really tired because I got up at 510 this morning. My alarm started going off at 440 but since I didn't fall asleep til after midnight it was really hard to get up. It was also really cold up in Binghamton. Though I'm happy that it's not quite so hot, I'm not ready for the cold yet. I don't feel like I got to do all the summer things I love. It just seems like the summer was here, I worked, and now it's gone. I guess that's how things work in Grown Up Land. I'm not looking forward to how much more clothing I'll have to pack since it'll be cold a lot of places I fly.
I can't think of anything noteworthy about the trip right now. I nearly got Joe's line again next month but after putting them out for 5 minutes they changed it. Now I have the complete opposite schedule of everyone I want to spend time with. The only good thing is I have overnights near Adri and Amy. Woo hoo. I'm probably going to swap some stuff still though so I don't have to work every weekend. As Jamie reminded me yesterday though, at least I have a line. For that I am truly thankful.
I have a lot to be thankful for. The attitude adjustment about my job is going alright. Today was the only day that I started feeling really pissy toward passengers. No I don't have milk. No I don't have grapefruit juice or Fresca. It's a freaking 45 minute flight. Have a bottle of water or a Diet Coke and shut up........ Had to get that out of my system.
Yesterday I finished a book by Corrie Ten Boom called The Hiding Place. Her family lived in Holland and hid Jews from Hitler. The story is some about their lives, some about their time with the Jews, and some about the time they spent in prison. It's an amazing book. She really lived her faith. It really gives you a perspective on what a bad day is like. I recommend it to anyone to read.
I'm off to forage for some food now. Let the weekend begin!!!
Monday, September 18, 2006
Can I have a branket prease?
I'm in the oh so exciting town of Dothan, AL am about to crash. Today was a decent day. I've decided that I need to figure out how to like my job more. I have no intention of finding another job but don't want to spend every day wishing it was over already. I'm in the process of analyzing what is bothering me and how to make it better. Today I just tried to pray a lot whenever I was feeling really tired or grouchy. It helped a lot. Every flight I had today I had at least one person that I had a pleasant conversation with. Some of them were just old guys flirting with me but it's just nice to have a human connection in an otherwise robotic job. We flew back from Shreveport this afternoon, did a Detroit roundtrip, and in spite of all three of those flights being really late, somehow got to Dothan 20 min early. It was excellent. All my passengers had all their body parts (visible ones anyway). There were a few smelly ones and a few with funny accents. I had one guy ask me for a bRanket. It was all I could not to crack a smile when what I really wanted to do was laugh really really loud. I'm such a jerk.
It's pretty ridiculous what I would give for a foot massage right now. Probably my forever and undying love. Too bad there isn't anyone around here who's willing to trade. Tomorrow is just a leg back to Atlanta and then up to Bingamton, NY. Not sure if that's how you spell it, or Shreveport either. All I have to know is their airport codes. So there. I had a guy tonight offer me his ipod in exchange for my wings. Then when he saw that I'd be more than willing to make the trade he changed his mind. I can always report them stolen. I need to go to sleep so I can get up and eat the breakfast here. I've been eating so poorly lately. I need to do better.
Thanks to the beauty of the internet I just saw Israel sitting at his desk in China, eating nuts and drinking some "milk like product". Need to figure out a way so I can talk to him instead of just typing. That's for another day. This one is over and I'm out.
It's pretty ridiculous what I would give for a foot massage right now. Probably my forever and undying love. Too bad there isn't anyone around here who's willing to trade. Tomorrow is just a leg back to Atlanta and then up to Bingamton, NY. Not sure if that's how you spell it, or Shreveport either. All I have to know is their airport codes. So there. I had a guy tonight offer me his ipod in exchange for my wings. Then when he saw that I'd be more than willing to make the trade he changed his mind. I can always report them stolen. I need to go to sleep so I can get up and eat the breakfast here. I've been eating so poorly lately. I need to do better.
Thanks to the beauty of the internet I just saw Israel sitting at his desk in China, eating nuts and drinking some "milk like product". Need to figure out a way so I can talk to him instead of just typing. That's for another day. This one is over and I'm out.
Sunday, September 17, 2006
ears are good
I'm at my parent's house waiting for them to get home so we can have lunch and spend some time together. I feel like I haven't seen them in a long time and that's no bueno. My family is the best. I overslept this morning so I went to Amie's church instead since it starts later. It was really nice.
The trip I did Thursday and Friday was really good for me. I had to get up too early and work too long which wasn't good, but some of the people I came across were what was good about it. I think God was trying to remind me how good my life is. Trying to make me stop focusing on my puny little life and what it doesn't hold and see what my life could be like.
The first flight of our trip was up to Buffalo, NY. They preboarded an old lady and whispered to me that they thought she had alzheimer's. She was also nearly deaf. She started telling me how her daughter had put her on a plane two days ago in a city that she couldn't remember. Colorado? No, what's that place where they gamble? Las Vegas. Yeah I think it was there. She said the plane broke and somehow she ended up in Atlanta. She said they lost her cause she was supposed to be going north but was in Atlanta. She said that her son must've had the biggest fright when they told him where he was supposed to pick her up. It's got to suck to not know what's going on or be able to remember where you were last week or five years ago.
The next person I came across was a lady flying back from Albany. She was a very beautiful lady probably in her 50s or 60s. She had to be pre-boarded and needed a wheelchair in Atlanta. After we landed and were waiting for the wheelchair she asked the pilot if a spinal cord stimulator affected the airplane cause she couldn't turn it off. She had some kind of spinal degeneration and after 4 surgeries it was the last resort. She had a battery implanted in her back and a wire that ran up her spine to control the pain. And for some reason when she had the 3 hour surgery they couldn't put her to sleep so she felt the whole thing. But she was so cheerful about everything and when the pilot offered to carry her bags down the stairs she said no, that she wanted to do everything she could while she could. She had such a great attitude about life and instead of whining and complaining she was happy to be able to do the simple things.
I was riding the escalator in Atlanta and was behind a soldier. I noticed that he had a little bandaid on his head behind his ear. He also had a scar the size of a quarter. This close inspection of the back of his head made me notice that what seemed to be his ear, was actually a fake ear. I'm so thankful not to be missing any of my body parts.
The person I saw that had the most impact on me was on my last flight to Asheville. I didn't see him until he was right there in front of me and I was completely shocked. He looked like someone off of a movie. It looked like his entire body had been burned. Both of his hands were gone. His ears, nose, lips and hair were also gone. He smiled and said hello to me, then took his bags that were looped around his arms and went to sit down. I was concerned about who would sit by him in case they would be rude or mean to him. A businessman sat there and they smiled and talked for most of the flight. As I sat and looked at him I couldn't help but think how that could be any one of us. I would have liked to know what happened to him. I wondered what he looked like before and what his family or loved ones thought of him. Watching him interract with the man next to him made me realize that I needed to make sure I didn't let his outside make me treat him any differently. He stil had the same personality underneath, still felt the same, thought the same, as someone with normal skin. He had friendly brown eyes and as he got off the plane he commented on how gorgeous it was up in Asheville and how much he loved it. It made me so thankful for what God has NOT allowed to happen to me and reminded me that regardless of appearance we all deserve the same love and kindness.
I finished this at home. My family got home so I stopped writing. Today was a good day. My life is good. My family is wonderful. My friends are as well. I'm very blessed to have 10 fingers, 10 toes, eyes, ears, a functioning brain and body. My belly is full so now I'm going to chill on the couch and watch tv with my friends until I feel like going to sleep.
The trip I did Thursday and Friday was really good for me. I had to get up too early and work too long which wasn't good, but some of the people I came across were what was good about it. I think God was trying to remind me how good my life is. Trying to make me stop focusing on my puny little life and what it doesn't hold and see what my life could be like.
The first flight of our trip was up to Buffalo, NY. They preboarded an old lady and whispered to me that they thought she had alzheimer's. She was also nearly deaf. She started telling me how her daughter had put her on a plane two days ago in a city that she couldn't remember. Colorado? No, what's that place where they gamble? Las Vegas. Yeah I think it was there. She said the plane broke and somehow she ended up in Atlanta. She said they lost her cause she was supposed to be going north but was in Atlanta. She said that her son must've had the biggest fright when they told him where he was supposed to pick her up. It's got to suck to not know what's going on or be able to remember where you were last week or five years ago.
The next person I came across was a lady flying back from Albany. She was a very beautiful lady probably in her 50s or 60s. She had to be pre-boarded and needed a wheelchair in Atlanta. After we landed and were waiting for the wheelchair she asked the pilot if a spinal cord stimulator affected the airplane cause she couldn't turn it off. She had some kind of spinal degeneration and after 4 surgeries it was the last resort. She had a battery implanted in her back and a wire that ran up her spine to control the pain. And for some reason when she had the 3 hour surgery they couldn't put her to sleep so she felt the whole thing. But she was so cheerful about everything and when the pilot offered to carry her bags down the stairs she said no, that she wanted to do everything she could while she could. She had such a great attitude about life and instead of whining and complaining she was happy to be able to do the simple things.
I was riding the escalator in Atlanta and was behind a soldier. I noticed that he had a little bandaid on his head behind his ear. He also had a scar the size of a quarter. This close inspection of the back of his head made me notice that what seemed to be his ear, was actually a fake ear. I'm so thankful not to be missing any of my body parts.
The person I saw that had the most impact on me was on my last flight to Asheville. I didn't see him until he was right there in front of me and I was completely shocked. He looked like someone off of a movie. It looked like his entire body had been burned. Both of his hands were gone. His ears, nose, lips and hair were also gone. He smiled and said hello to me, then took his bags that were looped around his arms and went to sit down. I was concerned about who would sit by him in case they would be rude or mean to him. A businessman sat there and they smiled and talked for most of the flight. As I sat and looked at him I couldn't help but think how that could be any one of us. I would have liked to know what happened to him. I wondered what he looked like before and what his family or loved ones thought of him. Watching him interract with the man next to him made me realize that I needed to make sure I didn't let his outside make me treat him any differently. He stil had the same personality underneath, still felt the same, thought the same, as someone with normal skin. He had friendly brown eyes and as he got off the plane he commented on how gorgeous it was up in Asheville and how much he loved it. It made me so thankful for what God has NOT allowed to happen to me and reminded me that regardless of appearance we all deserve the same love and kindness.
I finished this at home. My family got home so I stopped writing. Today was a good day. My life is good. My family is wonderful. My friends are as well. I'm very blessed to have 10 fingers, 10 toes, eyes, ears, a functioning brain and body. My belly is full so now I'm going to chill on the couch and watch tv with my friends until I feel like going to sleep.
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
she said it's cold outside and she hands me my raincoat
It's raining outside and I love the way it sounds. It's so peaceful and relaxing. I'm tired even though I've only just now been awake for more than 12 hours.
Today was a cheerful day. I did things that made me happy. I forgot to mention yesterday how happy it makes me to see gas in the low $2.30s. It's a beautiful thing. Today I took lunch to Amie over at her work, which used to be my work. I saw a lot of people that I never see anymore but that I really enjoy seeing. It was good times. After that I went to Walmart and picked up my contacts. It's about freaking time. I'm so tired of wearing my glasses.
Then I went to Ross and returned some shoes I bought the other day with the intention of them being my alternate/comfortable work shoes, but after carrying them around in my bag for 4 days I didnt' really feel like wearing them. So I returned them and bought a bra. I wish I had money to spend $40something every time I need a new bra. I just don't like the other, cheaper ones as much. I tried on about 10 and found one that was passable. After that I wandered around Target and found the skirt that I bought for super cheap but needed altering actually in my size, so now I can just return the too big one and not worry about fixing them. I love skirts and they have these great knit skirts at Target half off now - $6.48. I got 3 of them the other day but one was way too big.
After the shopping mission I went over to Jamie's for a minute until I met my mom and brother back over at Target. I was giving him a ride up into Atlanta to meet Joy so they could go to the Shakira concert. It was nice to see my mother dearest for a minute. Then Peter and I drove up into Atl, all the while discussing the fantastic music of our day and other riveting topics. We met up with a friend at the Village, found Joy and journeyed over to Moe's where we ate supper. Somewhere along the way it started pouring down rain and hasn't really stopped. It's always fun hanging out with my siblings. It helps to get my mind off me and my silly little life. They're so much fun. After that I came home and watched tv with my lovely Amie. Life is good.
I think I'm getting out of my funk. I've talked to more people in the last 24 hours than in the last week it seems. Now that I finally have a line I need to start setting up habits for the other areas of my life. Work has dominated my life for so long now and so many times I feel like that's all I do. I work, then I come home and recover from work, until it's time to get ready to go back to work. I don't want that to be all that my life involves. And it feels like it is right now. I feel like I'm living the average life. I've always felt sorry for people whose lives are simply work and go home and now I realize that right now that's all my life is as well. And for me, work isn't exactly the most mentally challenging, stimulating thing. Sometimes I feel like my brain is rotting out of my ears. Now that I feel a little less funky I hope to get my focus back where it should be.
As for now, sleep calls. I must answer.
PS. I just realized that my last blog was my 100th blog. Not much of a mile mark blog in my opinion, but hey, that's life isn't it. It always seems that things you intend to be momentous rarely are. Instead momentous things usually happen when you least expect them. I think it's been nearly a year since I started blogging as well. Good times.
Today was a cheerful day. I did things that made me happy. I forgot to mention yesterday how happy it makes me to see gas in the low $2.30s. It's a beautiful thing. Today I took lunch to Amie over at her work, which used to be my work. I saw a lot of people that I never see anymore but that I really enjoy seeing. It was good times. After that I went to Walmart and picked up my contacts. It's about freaking time. I'm so tired of wearing my glasses.
Then I went to Ross and returned some shoes I bought the other day with the intention of them being my alternate/comfortable work shoes, but after carrying them around in my bag for 4 days I didnt' really feel like wearing them. So I returned them and bought a bra. I wish I had money to spend $40something every time I need a new bra. I just don't like the other, cheaper ones as much. I tried on about 10 and found one that was passable. After that I wandered around Target and found the skirt that I bought for super cheap but needed altering actually in my size, so now I can just return the too big one and not worry about fixing them. I love skirts and they have these great knit skirts at Target half off now - $6.48. I got 3 of them the other day but one was way too big.
After the shopping mission I went over to Jamie's for a minute until I met my mom and brother back over at Target. I was giving him a ride up into Atlanta to meet Joy so they could go to the Shakira concert. It was nice to see my mother dearest for a minute. Then Peter and I drove up into Atl, all the while discussing the fantastic music of our day and other riveting topics. We met up with a friend at the Village, found Joy and journeyed over to Moe's where we ate supper. Somewhere along the way it started pouring down rain and hasn't really stopped. It's always fun hanging out with my siblings. It helps to get my mind off me and my silly little life. They're so much fun. After that I came home and watched tv with my lovely Amie. Life is good.
I think I'm getting out of my funk. I've talked to more people in the last 24 hours than in the last week it seems. Now that I finally have a line I need to start setting up habits for the other areas of my life. Work has dominated my life for so long now and so many times I feel like that's all I do. I work, then I come home and recover from work, until it's time to get ready to go back to work. I don't want that to be all that my life involves. And it feels like it is right now. I feel like I'm living the average life. I've always felt sorry for people whose lives are simply work and go home and now I realize that right now that's all my life is as well. And for me, work isn't exactly the most mentally challenging, stimulating thing. Sometimes I feel like my brain is rotting out of my ears. Now that I feel a little less funky I hope to get my focus back where it should be.
As for now, sleep calls. I must answer.
PS. I just realized that my last blog was my 100th blog. Not much of a mile mark blog in my opinion, but hey, that's life isn't it. It always seems that things you intend to be momentous rarely are. Instead momentous things usually happen when you least expect them. I think it's been nearly a year since I started blogging as well. Good times.
Monday, September 11, 2006
the farmer and the cowman should be friends
Don't ask me where that came from. I do not know.
It's been a while since I blogged. I've been away on a 4-day and due to weight restrictions (ie. my laziness) I didn't haul my laptop along. I seem to go in phases where sometimes I'm on the internet every chance I get and then sometimes I can't be bothered. All the while I was working though I kept thinking of things that I didn't want to forget, and therefore wanted to blog about.
Work-wise my trip was fairly uneventful. They've closed a runway in ATL which is going to make leaving nearly as much of a nightmare as coming in. Maybe even worse. I was finally getting used to sitting on the ramp for forever to get parked, but now, it seems that no matter what time of day it is, you have at least a 20 min taxi before taking off. Good times. Just about the only things that made any of my passengers noteworthy were two severe cases of body odor and one Xanax popping crazy lady who evidently thought all the rules of the airline, such as not wandering about the cabin immediately upon landing, while the plane is still going full speed, didn't apply to her. It was a cake trip though. Though it was a 4 day trip, I only worked 3 days. But on those 3 days I worked a lot of hours. Fewer, but much longer flights. I overnighted two nights in Albany, NY which allowed me to spend time with my bestest buddy Adri. It was a lot of fun, though looking back on it, we should have just stayed in ALB and layed around the hotel all day instead of driving back and forth. She's the best though. Not many people would drive all over tarnation to spend about 24 hours with me.
I can't think of any other work things to comment on at the moment. After getting up at 445 to be down at the van at 450 my major accomplishment of the day was shaving my legs when I got home. Quite a Monday check list: 1. fly from Manchester, NH to ATL at 6am 2. Do an OklaCity round trip 3. shave legs. I set my standards high. I also had a lovely dinner with Amie and David tonight. My quilt finally arrived and I'm not sure if I like it. I wanted the dominant colors to be green and lavender and they seem to be the most subtle colors. Yellow and dark pink being the dominant ones. I'll let it sit around in my room for a minute and we'll see.
I have more things to write about but I think they require a clearer mind. I feel like my mind has gone into veg mode lately and I need to wake it up somehow. But first I'm off to enjoy a long night's sleep in my very own bed.
PS. My back still hurts after sleeping in 3 different beds in the last 3 nights so I'm not ditching the pillow top just yet.
It's been a while since I blogged. I've been away on a 4-day and due to weight restrictions (ie. my laziness) I didn't haul my laptop along. I seem to go in phases where sometimes I'm on the internet every chance I get and then sometimes I can't be bothered. All the while I was working though I kept thinking of things that I didn't want to forget, and therefore wanted to blog about.
Work-wise my trip was fairly uneventful. They've closed a runway in ATL which is going to make leaving nearly as much of a nightmare as coming in. Maybe even worse. I was finally getting used to sitting on the ramp for forever to get parked, but now, it seems that no matter what time of day it is, you have at least a 20 min taxi before taking off. Good times. Just about the only things that made any of my passengers noteworthy were two severe cases of body odor and one Xanax popping crazy lady who evidently thought all the rules of the airline, such as not wandering about the cabin immediately upon landing, while the plane is still going full speed, didn't apply to her. It was a cake trip though. Though it was a 4 day trip, I only worked 3 days. But on those 3 days I worked a lot of hours. Fewer, but much longer flights. I overnighted two nights in Albany, NY which allowed me to spend time with my bestest buddy Adri. It was a lot of fun, though looking back on it, we should have just stayed in ALB and layed around the hotel all day instead of driving back and forth. She's the best though. Not many people would drive all over tarnation to spend about 24 hours with me.
I can't think of any other work things to comment on at the moment. After getting up at 445 to be down at the van at 450 my major accomplishment of the day was shaving my legs when I got home. Quite a Monday check list: 1. fly from Manchester, NH to ATL at 6am 2. Do an OklaCity round trip 3. shave legs. I set my standards high. I also had a lovely dinner with Amie and David tonight. My quilt finally arrived and I'm not sure if I like it. I wanted the dominant colors to be green and lavender and they seem to be the most subtle colors. Yellow and dark pink being the dominant ones. I'll let it sit around in my room for a minute and we'll see.
I have more things to write about but I think they require a clearer mind. I feel like my mind has gone into veg mode lately and I need to wake it up somehow. But first I'm off to enjoy a long night's sleep in my very own bed.
PS. My back still hurts after sleeping in 3 different beds in the last 3 nights so I'm not ditching the pillow top just yet.
Thursday, September 7, 2006
today is supposed to be
productive day. Instead, it's nearly 12:30, I'm still in my pjs and just now put a load of laundry in. The last few days have been recooperation time from work, but now that I have to go back to work tomorrow it's time to get stuff done. And I still don't feel like it. My schedule is really confusing my bed changing habits. I usually try to change my sheets every other week but I've only slept on them a few times so they aren't dirty yet. Feels weird though. It's one of those things like sleeping late in the middle of the week - I have to remind myself that I have a really weird job so it's ok to sleep really late sometimes and go several weeks without changing my sheets since I only spend half my nights on them.
I'm really excited about my trip tomorrow. I'll be gone for 4 days but only have to work on 3 of them. I will also be doing 8 flights, instead of 13, and getting paid more. Life is good when you have a line and can swap stuff. I'm kind of sad cause I won't be flying with Joe, but I'll get to spend the day with Adri which pretty much rocks my face off. The way it works is, tomorrow night I end up in Albany, NY around 9pm where Adri will pick me up and take me to her house (she's the best). I'll spend the night and Saturday there, then she'll bring me back the next night in time for work on Sunday morning. I think I dreamed about all this cause it's sounds kind of familiar now that I'm telling it.
Another bed related thing - can your bed be too soft?? I slept on an air mattress for a while a few years ago and my lower back used to hurt a lot cause it was too soft. Now that I got this pillow top thing for my bed my lower back hurts, but since I sleep on my bed so rarely it's hard to say if its my bed or just my back. I'd hate to have to get rid of the lovely pillow top softness. What a dilemma... :-P I finally ordered my new quilt. Now I've got delivery impatience. Don't they know I really want this?? Shouldn't it be their priority?
Probably one of the reasons I'm not feeling particularly motivated today is because I still haven't gotten to veg for an entire day since being off. On Tuesday I had to go to the dentist. I got yelled at cause I don't floss and have to go back next month cause I have cavities. Thankfully they're small. After that I went to the music store in Fayetteville and helped my mother decide between two violins for my little sister. That was fun. I'm really glad she has a nice violin to play now. No more student violin squeakiness. After that I went to Publix, bought asparagus and steak and went home and shared it with Amie. I still need to go proper grocery shopping, but it just takes too much energy.
Yesterday morning I had to get up around 7 to take a puppy up to Harrisburg, PA for my old music teacher. It's actually for her daughter but it was going to cost them a fortune to ship it up there, and since I can fly for free I was glad I could help. Thankfully I made the flight straight back so I was home around 2, but it was still really tiring. Then I came home and slept for a few hours. Maybe that's why I couldn't fall asleep when I got back in bed at 930 last night? Mr. L made what he calls frito plates for me last night. It's basically like taco salad but with fritos. It was yummy.
I guess I should get on with my day. I feel like I haven't seen anyone in a long time. I miss my friends and family. I've kind of been in a funk though so when I'm home I don't feel like doing anything. Just feel like lying around and sleeping. Hopefully I'll snap out of it soon. I hate feeling this way cause I feel like I need to just keep to myself otherwise I'll be nasty to those I'm around. Just ask my family, and my roommates. Good times. I'm so great.
I'm really excited about my trip tomorrow. I'll be gone for 4 days but only have to work on 3 of them. I will also be doing 8 flights, instead of 13, and getting paid more. Life is good when you have a line and can swap stuff. I'm kind of sad cause I won't be flying with Joe, but I'll get to spend the day with Adri which pretty much rocks my face off. The way it works is, tomorrow night I end up in Albany, NY around 9pm where Adri will pick me up and take me to her house (she's the best). I'll spend the night and Saturday there, then she'll bring me back the next night in time for work on Sunday morning. I think I dreamed about all this cause it's sounds kind of familiar now that I'm telling it.
Another bed related thing - can your bed be too soft?? I slept on an air mattress for a while a few years ago and my lower back used to hurt a lot cause it was too soft. Now that I got this pillow top thing for my bed my lower back hurts, but since I sleep on my bed so rarely it's hard to say if its my bed or just my back. I'd hate to have to get rid of the lovely pillow top softness. What a dilemma... :-P I finally ordered my new quilt. Now I've got delivery impatience. Don't they know I really want this?? Shouldn't it be their priority?
Probably one of the reasons I'm not feeling particularly motivated today is because I still haven't gotten to veg for an entire day since being off. On Tuesday I had to go to the dentist. I got yelled at cause I don't floss and have to go back next month cause I have cavities. Thankfully they're small. After that I went to the music store in Fayetteville and helped my mother decide between two violins for my little sister. That was fun. I'm really glad she has a nice violin to play now. No more student violin squeakiness. After that I went to Publix, bought asparagus and steak and went home and shared it with Amie. I still need to go proper grocery shopping, but it just takes too much energy.
Yesterday morning I had to get up around 7 to take a puppy up to Harrisburg, PA for my old music teacher. It's actually for her daughter but it was going to cost them a fortune to ship it up there, and since I can fly for free I was glad I could help. Thankfully I made the flight straight back so I was home around 2, but it was still really tiring. Then I came home and slept for a few hours. Maybe that's why I couldn't fall asleep when I got back in bed at 930 last night? Mr. L made what he calls frito plates for me last night. It's basically like taco salad but with fritos. It was yummy.
I guess I should get on with my day. I feel like I haven't seen anyone in a long time. I miss my friends and family. I've kind of been in a funk though so when I'm home I don't feel like doing anything. Just feel like lying around and sleeping. Hopefully I'll snap out of it soon. I hate feeling this way cause I feel like I need to just keep to myself otherwise I'll be nasty to those I'm around. Just ask my family, and my roommates. Good times. I'm so great.
Sunday, September 3, 2006
your skin so wet, black lace on sweat
It feels good to be home. It's about freaking time. These last 6 days have been sooo long. Now I'm in my own bed, in my own room, and it's great. I still feel like I'm on an airplane though, which is not great. The last 2 flights of the 22 that have made up my last 6 days were a Midway Chicago round trip. For some reason "Poison" was really stuck in my head (I almost said was really running through my veins but it was just too bad :-P). So when I got in my car to drive home the first thing I did was find it on my Turn It Up cd that was already in there. Then I listened to it over and over on the way home. Really loud. And sang along. Really loud (well as loud as my pathetic vocal chord will allow). It rocked my face off. So then I got home, showered, got ready to chill out and sleep and for some reason looked at my first blog I wrote on here. It was nearly a year ago, 9/19/05, and I was talking about this song that was my new favorite song. It doesn't take a genius to figure out where I'm going with this. Yeah, it was Poison. What can I say though? It's freaking fabulous.
Like I said, today was a ridiculously long day. I'm glad it's over. I'm glad I don't have to work for another 3 days. I fully intend to sleep until I can't sleep any more tomorrow. Then I get to go to the dentist. So not cool. Toodaloo...
Like I said, today was a ridiculously long day. I'm glad it's over. I'm glad I don't have to work for another 3 days. I fully intend to sleep until I can't sleep any more tomorrow. Then I get to go to the dentist. So not cool. Toodaloo...
Saturday, September 2, 2006
cincincinatti
I'm writing this blog as a tribute to the efficiency of my company. This morning I woke up at 5am in Baton Rouge so I could go to the airport, fly to Cincinatti with 12 passengers, dead head (ride) a nearly empty flight to Colombia, SC, fly 6 people back to Cinci, sit for 3hr15m and fly 40 or so minutes to Knoxville, TN. It's good to know that they value our time and don't want us sitting around doing nothing... If I sound bitter it's only because I've worked 5 days in a row now and won't be finished until late tomorrow night. For those of you who may say "I work 5 days in a row every week" let me just say, this is different. If I came in and worked 8 hours and went home that would be freaking fantastic. I'm not really complaining. Just stating the difference.
This trip has been good so far. I've hardly had any passengers which seems surprising since it's a holiday weekend. The first 3 day trip I did was ridiculous. If it wasn't for my crew being really fun I would have killed myself (or seriously considered it.) I don't think we had a single flight leave on time the entire trip. Way to go [Insert my company's name here]. I probably sound grouchy but I'm really just tired and want to go home for more than a few hours at a time. I've been at home 3 complete days since 8/17. Anyhoo... C'est la vie.
I wish I had something more interesting to write about but I don't. I don't think anything particularly grand has happened lately, and if it has I can't remember.
I did have my brother Israel and his girlfriend on my flight from XNA to ATL on Friday. It was funny cause I couldn't stop laughing while I was doing my announcements cause they were making faces at me, and then my dear captain made an announcement that I had been on American Idol and everyone started clapping for me. Kind of livened things up.
I sold my car last Sunday night after posting a blog about it. If you want to sell something craigslist.com seems to be the place to do it. I got more than I asked for it and had the cash in my hand in less than 3 hours after posting the ad. Good times.
Guess that's all for now. Only an hour and a half left sitting here.
This trip has been good so far. I've hardly had any passengers which seems surprising since it's a holiday weekend. The first 3 day trip I did was ridiculous. If it wasn't for my crew being really fun I would have killed myself (or seriously considered it.) I don't think we had a single flight leave on time the entire trip. Way to go [Insert my company's name here]. I probably sound grouchy but I'm really just tired and want to go home for more than a few hours at a time. I've been at home 3 complete days since 8/17. Anyhoo... C'est la vie.
I wish I had something more interesting to write about but I don't. I don't think anything particularly grand has happened lately, and if it has I can't remember.
I did have my brother Israel and his girlfriend on my flight from XNA to ATL on Friday. It was funny cause I couldn't stop laughing while I was doing my announcements cause they were making faces at me, and then my dear captain made an announcement that I had been on American Idol and everyone started clapping for me. Kind of livened things up.
I sold my car last Sunday night after posting a blog about it. If you want to sell something craigslist.com seems to be the place to do it. I got more than I asked for it and had the cash in my hand in less than 3 hours after posting the ad. Good times.
Guess that's all for now. Only an hour and a half left sitting here.
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